Teenage State of Mind

Teenage State of Mind...yes hormones and love hangovers. 

Pimples and panic attacks. Forever a reality with old age just a dream. 

Loud music , drama queens. 

Big deals , "Are you for real" s, 

Everythings so important ,so much to do….teenagerism 

Yes it once happened to me it could be happening to you 

2013 Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I wrote this because I have a teenage daughter who has just experienced her first relationship , she really thought of forever with this boy and I just hoped she would make it through.They broke up this week and I was worried about her and him. They are both young and have a whole life hopefully of experiences good and bad. It seems when we're teenagers everything is so much more .

Waves

Waves crash , water rushes forward 
then quickly recedes

White sand dulls to grey when wet

Sandpipers scatter
then pierce the shore with
their straw like beaks
microscopic organisms their 
daily feast
Timed precision and quick feet
they scurry along missing the next rush of foam from the sea

Castles made of sand walls ,breached
sink and colapse

Skys slowly turn from orange to pink 

Gulls find refuge along with their other cousins with beaks 
while warm winds blow and crashing waves sing 
them to sleep. (2009)

By me , Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Sleeping

Sleeping , I watch you breathing
The moonlite shines upon your face
You are so beautiful to me
You don't know how much I take
like the owl and the pussy cat 
a drift in an endless sea
one always wishing the other could fly
the other never really getting that high
Sleeping , I watch you breathing 
Moonlight on your face
I lean down and kiss your lips , kiss your face
You roll back and pull me down , arms wrap around me
Pulling me close , you rest your head
Your lips against my neck
Awake , I listen to you breath 
Holding your arms tight , I am thankful 
Sleeping I hear you breath , and a smile fills my face , as I too
drift off to sleep. (2009)


By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv


I am really one who loves the human experience. Nothing intrigues me more than the quest for love. Everyone wants someone that is theirs ,  someone that makes them better , that gives them light.  Adam once watched as the animals he helped name werent alone , in that they had mates, he searched and prayed and then bone of his bones was made. So do not be mislead all you searching souls , love is waitng out there even for you.(2009)  Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Makes Me Tingle

Nothing inspires me more than red tail hawks flying over head
The smell of fresh brewed coffee
The coziness of my bed

Nothing makes me tingle more than a good deed
Hugs from happy people
Giving to those in need

Nothing makes me feel love more than
being thought of during the day
words of encouragement ,
when my hope seems to have run out
being there for them or them for me
no matter what or who its about

By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I called this one Ultra Violet because no one knows what gets another person , you cant just look at someone and say hey I get them unless you know them , or strive to find out and this is part of who I am , Do you get me now.:} Cynthia

Chair Sinks

The sand sticks between my toes 
My hair wind blowing it all around
tickles my nose
The sun shines on my shoulders, they are pink
My beach chair sitting in wet sand 
starts to sink (2009)
By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Two Hands Intwined

Two hands , intwined

Five fingers , holding mine

Seagulls flying and calling from up in the sky

Jellyfish washed ashore by high tide

Four foot prints follow behind in a row

Water fills them and they wash away

As we enjoy this time , our day

(2009) Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I am ready for the summer , not actually the heat , but the beach , the strolls , volley ball , yes even tourists.  This sleepy little town is about to awake. Hope you all are having a wonderful night (2009). Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Sugar Coated Friend

Its crazy , you know , just crazy
How you take my breath away
How you  have taken  me by surprise
How come your so captivating
If I only knew
My thoughts only of you 
How you have  taken  me by surprise
Sweet dream of mine
Dreams are sweet ofcourse
But what about  when the 
sun kisses me awake
Will this dream end , 
My sweet crazy sugar coated friend (2009) 

 
By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I think we all want to be loved. Really loved , not just liked for how we look , or what we have , but for us , and this is a dream until it isn't . I really hope everyone awakes from their dreams to even sweeter realities. Until then I will be dreaming with you.  (2009) Cynthia LuvbabyLuv
 

Soon All Will Be Clear

Love is that you whispering in my ear
You know just what to say :
Again 
Do I really want to hear that melody in my mind

Love is that you , pounding in my heart
that race in my vein
Do I really want to feel
that tingle down my spine


Love is that you , I can't keep my thoughts straight
always turning back to you 
Do I really want to breath 
this hard
when I think these thoughts
Their always a beautiful dream at the start

Or loneliness is that you , whispering in my ear 
loves mimic , yes so close to it 
I fear 
that not love but desire for it , a mimic
and soon all will be clear (2009) Revised (2013)


By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv
 
Love isnt something we can buy or find and put in our pocket , it isn't immediate although we want it to be . I wish you could bottle up the first time feelings we all have when we meet someone who intrances us. I mean it feels like everything is so fresh and new and that life never felt so grand. Remember , love isn't something you automatcally have , it is what is born out of  a true relationship. Don't sell yourself short for the feelings of first contact , but save and invest to see if the investment is worth the risk of giving birth to love. True love once found , well it is what we all want isn't it.  (2009) Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Heart Beating

Are you asking me to stop my heart from beating

Do you think I can really not care

From the first time I saw you 

Whatever 

I always wanted you there

How do I stop breathing so as not 
to feel this way

I wouldn't choose to turn the clock back 
and not live that first day

By Me Cynthia (2009)

Relationships , we all need them , the human need for companionship and a mutal feeling of being wanted and loved. The last thing anyone wants is to make the wrong choice in who we choose to love ,but it happens. Usually one person is left clinging to the memories of days past and heartbreak is the aftermath. Choose wisely. Cynthia (2009)

Turn Up the Music

So you want to be moved

Turn up the music

Sing a song

So you want to be moved

Turn up the music

Kick your heels off
and dance along

By Me Cynthia (2009)

Well tonight I find myself alone , again. I want to go dancing , but here I am , alone , again. What to do ? I have surround sound , Michael Bubblie , :), so I am taking a break to tell you all , it is ok to dance , yes dance all by yourself . So off I go again.  The night is beautiful , my french doors are open and in here my party is not yet ready to end , so have a great rest of your weekend , love yourself , even if for now thats all you have , and let the party begin. Cynthia (2009)

Tomorrows yet to be

Wind swept hair , gently brushed
aside by a soft warm hand
Four footprints in the sand
A small quick embrace
A smile on a face
Hands hold each other tight

Sunset , pinks and reds
Sun  seems to sink into the sea
Sitting side by side
Pondering what
tommorrow
will bring (2009)

By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I love the beach. I do live where the most beautiful beaches are, There were more of them before the storms.  Everyday you can walk the same stretch of beach and see so many different things.  I do love the people that seem to be in love and they stand out. They are their own sunset and sunrise.  Cynthia (2009)

There Was a Place

There was a place
I use to go
I wish It was
still here

There was a voice I
use to hear
I miss it in my ear

There was a thought
I thought alot
Now my mind is
clear
There was a place
I use to go
My mind an open field
He met me there
we had our time
He left me standing
in my mind
His voice was a voice
I loved to hear
He was a place I longed to
go
A scar upon my heart
I once felt him in my sleep
Although he was only a thought (2009)

By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv
Well , I can only say it is really storming outside and I am here and that is what I came up with , maybe tommorrow will be sunny. You know letting someone in to your heart and mind can be an awsome thing , then it can also bring you alot of pain when they leave a hole there. (2009) Cynthia

I miss you

i miss you you know
was it all a game
I wanted it to be real 
It was insane
It has been so long since 
I have felt 
any way
I think about you everyday
I really miss you 
what I thought might be
I miss my day dreams
You , me
I really miss you you know
I really wish I could just let you 
go

Cynthia LuvbabyLuv (2009)

The Sea Was Green

The sea was green
the sky grey with haze

A beam of light caressed the shore 

two children played

The wind it blew my hair
all around

A kite flew up and came
crashing down

The sea was green
The sky grey with haze

Seagulls stood in scattered groups
Sandpipers hurried missing the
incoming waves

A jelly fish washed a shore
Broken shells shatterd in wet sand
A couple walked by holding hands

By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv (2009)

I went to the beach yesturday. It was a grey day and very windy. The sun peeking through the clouds fooled my daughter making her think that she might be given a tan if she were to go to the beach. I gave in and brought my nieces along. The sea was green and the waves were very ruff. The red flags were flying along the beaches. They settled in fighting  against the wind gusts to get the sheet laid down upon the sand and I decided to walk with my thoughts. This was my journey. Cynthia (2009)

Did you know

Did you know
even in the dark eyes closed tight
we can still feel a heart beat
imagine and see the never end
only how to begin

Did you know , 
even in the dark eyes closed tight
we can feel the warmth of an arm holding us 
through the night

Did you  know, even in the dark eyes closed tight
two can become one
toes touching toes
when at last , sun makes light (2009)

Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Strangers Are We

You dont know the life I live
My nightmares 
My dreams, the struggles in my head
Anxieties life fed 
My life 
an intricate design
You think of me , 
When your listening to that song
Visions in your head , of how
It will be 
I think of you ,
only like in a dream
where I dont see your face , but I know it is you
I feel you , you are there
Then I am awake 
The dream that seemed real
Who are you , I dont know 
Do I really care
So you think of me 
Strangers are we
Feeling a need
I feel 
So you think of me 
What am I to do 
I think of you

This one was not as good as the one that I just lost into cyberspace when my connection was lost , but this is for all those people out there that are lonely and are searching , sometimes in all the wrong places. Everyone has that dream , of someone else , that perfect match , that perfect life. It makes our heart flutter , our stomachs churn and those nights seem so long. But the dream , when it is realized that it is  only a dream , leaves us wanting to return to the sleep and back to the dream once we find that we are awake. So choose wisely , love yourselfs , don't rush into relationships to only wish you would of not made a mistake. Cynthia (2009)

Ive been reposting poems from another blog that is not as well known. It is interesting to go back and read from poems from the past. (2013)

picture hung in his mind

He saw her , she was now a picture

hung in his mind

She smiled each time he walked by

She would allow herself to fantasize

Neither knowing they  had thoughts 

similar , it would only take time



I know hes out there, I am just going to wait , patiently, and he will walk by, he will be a picture in my mind and as for him , he will have me on his mind. Dont let love pass you by. Dont give in to anything less.  Love yourself.  Cynthia (2009)


I just read this and my husband and I liked each other when we first met only we remained friends for years neither knowing that and I didn't write this about him or anyone at the time. Funny how things just pop in my mind (2013)

Morning Dove

Morning dove spreads her wings

Never thinks of impossible things

smiles  when she wants to cry

Never lets a day just 

pass her by.


Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Big Mistake

For all you beautiful ladies 

YOU are important enough 
YOU are worth a lot

More than what little 
your getting out of him

YOU are beautiful 
YOU brighten every room

Why 
Take 
What 
Little 
He 
Is 
Willing to 
GIVE

For all you beautiful men

YOU are important enough
YOU are worth a lot 

YOU are gorgeous
All the WOMEN swoon

Why 
Run
Your
Train
Off
Its
Tracks

Why are YOU taking all her crap

Why do WE all 
Fall 
For 
What 
WE really 
Wish
COULD 
BE 
GREAT

Is it because we 
really don't value
ourselves , so we 
make such BIG 
MISTAKES

By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

I guess what I am saying is exactly what one of my stickers on the bulletin board says , why make someone a priority that makes you an option. Why wait by a phone , why wait to be noticed , or thought of. THERE are good men and women out there that are not SELFISH and do CARE and know how to show it. Dont sell yourself short. I feel like this is what I find myself doing alot. So a warning to all the fellow doormats out there. Hugs and Kisses to all and to all a good night , life. Love yourselfs. Cynthia

Hopefully it was fun

What do you do when you 
want to be heard


Speak


What do you do when you 
cant find the words


Think


What do you do when you
want what cant be yours


Dream


What do you do when you 
 know its all said and done

Be thankful for the memories and hopefully 
it was fun

Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Fills Me Up

music 
it moves 
us from withen
our core 


our frame 
sways to the beat
we move our feet


stirred along 
like cream in the cup


fills me up 
music 



By Me Cynthia LuvbabyLuv

Digital Love

I am having a romance
 with my celluar phone

Its always on my mind

I like to keep it close
I can not keep my eyes off it 
This really is sublime

I wait to hear it sing 
the songs I like to hear

And I  even  like to talk to it 
as I hold it to my ear

My fingers like to caress it 
sending messages through its spine

Hoping to recieve from it 
an enjoyable   reply

Yes I am having a romance 
with my cellular phone

I never go without it 
not even when I am at  home

By Me Cynthia

I wrote this after I received and fell in love with my first smart phone. Its been a few years since I felt that way. I have learned that so many wonderful things , people , life are all around me daily and looking at my phone screen means missing out on other things that are much more important. I still enjoy my smart phone and all its gizmos. I just try and not let it consume me. Cynthia

WHY NOT

Someday , maybe not far away
Maybe tommorrows will be todays
Dreams will be real and not fade away
Someday , maybe not far away
Maybe the hopes we have will
become reality
Doors locked will suddenly have keys
Maybe

By Me Cynthia

I have always wanted to be a writer, so I write, I have always wanted to work with wild life , so I volunteered for 12 years at a local zoo and wildlife rehab/refuge. There are so many things I want to try , I have so many dreams. Don't we all.  Life is one big "WHAT IF" and I know that with alittle faith , it can be "WHY NOT". Don't let your dreams fade away. My grandfather once told me "Theres nothing you can't do, but a lot of people will tell you otherwise."  I miss him alot.  Cynthia

Legal Discrimination

Erick has had the police called on him at a park for handing out free bagels , they told him if he returned to Calhoun Park he would be arrested for trespassing, mean while the family that called the police was cooking hamburgers and hotdogs and handing them out for free, Ericks chickens were taken recently , 5 little baby chicks in a big box with water and food , the officer said if Erick said they were his he would charge him with animal cruelty, so he took them to P.A.W.S which is known for killing animals due to limited space and funds, then when his truck broke down near a ball park in Destin the police were called saying a panhandler was bothering the families, the policeman came and was at first upset when he found Erick asleep in his truck apparently exhausted from Panhandling, When Erick awoke and was told he was going to be arrested for trespassing he was like why? the officer said he was bothering people by panhandling , when Erick said he wasn't the officer sure to catch him in a lie asked some witnesses and they said no , he was just scary looking and didn't want their kids scared. This is discrimination. This is discrimination at its worst. I have called and spoke to the police about each incident , we are making a documentary . I also explained how horrible it was that Erick was being basically picked on by people who didn't like the way he looked and they agreed but when a call is placed they have to go out to that call. I called the policeman about the chicks and he claimed he only asked if they were Ericks(who else's would they be) and Erick said no so he said ok Im going to take them to PAWS.

This goes out to all those parents who want to teach their children to discriminate instead of be kind to the less fortunate by calling the police on people who look different than them. This is for all the people who work as public servants who use their power to  encourage intolerance instead of loving kindness.

Home

Home is where the heart is

Home is a hug from your best friend

Home is a field you played in as a child

Home is a dinner with family where you enjoy
visiting for a long while

Home for some is a hut , or tent

Home for others an apartment they rent

Home is outside , a park bench or box
built for two

Home really is home , whatever home is to you